A Collection of Words Left Unsaid

by Matthew Ellis

/
  • Streaming + Download

    Includes unlimited streaming via the free Bandcamp app, plus high-quality download in MP3, FLAC and more.

      $5 USD  or more

     

  • Compact Disc (CD) + Digital Album

    This 20-track album comes in a jacket, with photography by Jon Cole.

    Includes unlimited streaming of A Collection of Words Left Unsaid via the free Bandcamp app, plus high-quality download in MP3, FLAC and more.
    ships out within 2 days

      $12 USD or more 

     

1.
2.
04:27
3.
4.
05:11
5.
6.
04:11
7.
03:07
8.
9.
04:29
10.
11.
12.
13.
03:17
14.
03:40
15.
04:37
16.
17.
02:40
18.
19.
20.
05:16

about

Debut album!

credits

released July 1, 2014

All music written, performed, and recorded by Matthew Ellis.
Album mixed and mastered by Paul Wise at Studio 33.
Photography by Jon Cole.

license

all rights reserved

tags

about

Matthew Ellis Findlay, Ohio

Singer-Songwriter out of Findlay, OH.
Sophomore album out now!

contact / help

Contact Matthew Ellis

Streaming and
Download help

Redeem code

Track Name: Give Me the Storm
like the skies are blue
you loved me, and I loved you
like the birds need the sky
I needed us, you and I

but in came the storms
you lied and you left
the lighting and rain
took my sun away
replaced by these shades
these shades of grey

so give me the storm
the lightning and rain
bring on the floods
give me more thunder
bring on the pain
what doesn’t kill you makes you stronger
this broken heart is not in vain
but it's not beating any longer

I still remember
you put your hand on my knee
from that moment on
I knew you loved me
but I'll never forget
how you wanted him
never even denied it
my love and I just weren’t enough
and I wanted to fight it
but I’m not that tough
Track Name: Gone
won't you hold me close
and whisper those three words
please tell me that I'm strong
make me believe your lies
so maybe I can get some sleep tonight

we're already gone
and the pain is still the same
like two corpses in this bed
yet we refuse to give up life
this is all that’s left of you and I

we’re already done
so won't you go
all my strength is gone
it takes all I have
just to face the sun
each morning,
knowing we’re done…

we’re already gone
but these memories remain
like two corpses in this bed
writhing in pain
that’s all that’s left of you and I
all that’s left’s to say goodbye

we're already done
so won't you go
all my strength is gone
it takes all I have
just to face the sun
each morning,
knowing we’re done…

won't you hold me close
and whisper those three three words
please tell me that I'm strong
make me believe your lies
so maybe I can get some sleep
tonight.
Track Name: Modern Day Slave
She hopes her baby girl doesn’t wake
to find her mothers body
naked in a dumpster
a couple blocks away.
She hates the cold street corner
Where the good, godly people give her those looks
They cut deeper than his hands ever could
She's lost control of her own life
So she takes his wad of cash
and thinks of simpler times
better times
like when she remembered how to love
like when she still had her innocence
and when he's finished she goes back to her corner and does it all again

blame the victim
she's just a woman
she's just a whore
she's just a commodity
and you’re the consumer
who’s gonna give her what you
think she needs
she’s not really a person
just your modern day slave

you say she has a choice
and I suppose she does
accept the money and let you have your way
or face the man who holds the key to her chains
yea, I'm sure he'd let her leave,
let his merchandise just walk away
he respects her less than you
if you can try to imagine that
his modern day slave

well maybe if people didn't treat others like objects
or like something to use and cast aside
maybe if men respected women
if man didn't buy her then man couldn't sell her
then maybe we could free the modern day slave
Track Name: Run Away
I remember that time we each packed a bag
and you drove us to the bay
I was so young
Naive, but I thought I had it figured out
It was like our own little vacation,
and that's what we said
But I knew It was just an escape,
if only for a night
to be out of his reach, to run away
if only for a night

I remember that time he caught you with another
dragged you inside, threatened to expose you
I already knew
You were sobbing uncontrollably,
and I didn't know what to do
I smiled and acted like there was nothing wrong
I wish I would have said I love you
That I knew and didn't care
Instead I shut my door and tried not to hear

I wish you would run away
you're not his property,
and you deserve better
just pack your bags and leave
he doesn’t deserve a letter
just run away

maybe you’ll lose your house,
but what kind of home is fear
and you might end up alone for the rest of your days
but what reason is that to spend the rest of your life in pain

now I'm older
not so naive
I've tried on those shoes
and I know why you didn’t leave
repeated lies begin to feel like truth
he kept you down,
and you believed
I understand why you stayed,
but now you need to run away
Track Name: Second Class Citizen (Red, White & Blue)
My postage stamp has a picture of the American flag
beneath it is written equality
so it must be true,
it must be true
equality for all in the red, white, and blue

you say I’m free
land of equality
but I’m just a second class citizen
this sea
I drown in
is red white and blue
I’m sorry,
I just cant love you

this land of red white and blue
you love it,
you just have to
this land of red white and blue
where the masses suppress the minorities at the polls
where we all have our roles
feed the wealthy and starve the poor
you love it, don’t you
this land of the red white and blue

I’m just a second class citizen
so I guess it doesn’t matter what I say
because the rich, white man makes the decisions
and the ones in the mansions and fancy cars aren’t listening
because I’m just a second class citizen

God bless this land of the red white and blue
God bless me and
God bless you
second class citizens
in this land of the red white and blue
Track Name: Fallen
And though I've taken up this torch,
just to let it burn out
I'll set fire to my heart,
let the flames consume my doubt
And though I've tried and fallen
ten thousand times before
I will stand again and
I will try once more

My demons have knocked me down
again
life looks so bleak here from the ground,
my friend
to be like the birds
in the trees
they go where they will,
so free

Don’t look at me like that
I’m sure you’ve fallen before
don’t look at me like that
we're all fighting our own war

they whisper lies
keep me paralyzed
like standing still
feet glued to the ground
like lying there
watching myself drown
too scared to step forward
afraid I'll fall back
uncertain,
untoward
I know what I lack

like a bird without wings,
I no longer fly
but like a phoenix from the flames,
once again I'll rise
Track Name: Masquerader
You have to be the victim
need everyone’s attention
and no matter what you do
have to keep their eyes on you

Got to paint a sorry picture
got to keep them in the dark
portray yourself in victim’s light
you have the most broken heart

Exaggerate a lie
manipulate the truth
just so long as they
are taking pity on you
just so long as they
are feeling sorry for you

just hide behind your mask
don’t let them see who you are
but I see through your disguise
I see through all your lies

But what will you do
once they can see right through you
will you exaggerate a lie
will you manipulate the truth
paint yourself in victims light
or try to stay out of sight
because no matter what you do
they’re gonna keep their eyes on you
Track Name: Priests & Prostitutes
Priests and Prostitutes
Who are we to know the path she's been called to walk along
Who are we to know what he does when he's all alone
Priests and Prostitutes
Who are we to judges the sins of the flesh and of the mind
Priests and Prostitutes
God loves us one and all
There isn't one of us who won't fall

Let him without sin cast the first stone
and the pot called the kettle black
soon they will reap what they have sown
from their little homes of glass

did not Rahab help Israel
with Joshua at Jericho
and did not Jesus first appear to Magdalene
upon defeating the grave
but the Pharisees and Sadducees
they killed Jesus Christ
Track Name: Lie
I fought back the tears
As you put your arm around me
I hate the way you make me feel
but I know your words as truth
no one else could ever love me
I'm nothing without you

Every time you’d walk away
You’d let me fall
and feeling so low
back to you I’d crawl
never learned to stand alone
I should have known better
I should have seen
exactly who you were
but at just 19
I couldn’t
I wouldn’t
and you wouldn’t let me

it takes two to hurt
one to hit and one to let him
I met your knives with smiles
your words with quiet pain
over and over,
repeated lies
in time,
I believe they’re true
when spoken from a lovers lips
what else was I to do

it takes two to hurt
one to hit and one to let him
but I’m not listening anymore
I’m done with your abuse
you may have won the battles
but now I win the war
get in one last lie
I’m walking out the door
Track Name: Run Away Part. 2
Your mind thinks in shadows of what used to be
shadows of who you were
shadows of who he made you

you cling to shreds
what you have left of living
cling to the threads
if you call that alive

get out (run away)
Get out while you still breathe
get out (run away)
get out, please leave (run away)

he'll pull you down
lock you in the dark
wants nothing more
than to feel you under his thumb
this manipulation
its no competition (run away)
you're like a fiddle in the devil’s hands,
he's already won (run away)

my mind thinks in shadows of what used to be
shadows of who he made me
shadows of the pain

shadows of the pain
yet it lingers on (run away)
Track Name: Vodka & Vicodin
Pop another vicodin
throw back another shot
nothing like the feel of sin
and your favorite 80 proof
anything to dull the pain
anything to forget your name
and all the mistakes from yesterday
anything to keep your troubles away

take a few more and wash 'em down
straight from the bottle
you left class behind 4 pills and 5 shots ago
who cares what they all think
you're at a record breaking low

finish off the bottle
and the vodka too
maybe you’ll kill the pain
but tonight it's killing you
Track Name: Finger on the Trigger
You're like the stone around my ankles
as I'm cast into the sea
You pull me down
you watch me drown
I just want to be
free

You're like the finger on the trigger
gun pointed at my chest
you love to break my
heart

again and again and again
gun pointed at my chest
you pull the trigger
again and again and again
you love to break my heart
again and again and again

You're like the voice inside my mind
saying everything is fine
you feed upon my fears
whispering lies into my ears
I just want to be
free

You're the like the finger on the trigger
Gun pointed at my head
you won't rest ‘til I'm
dead
Track Name: Fall
I'm looking in the mirror
Don't like what I see
Wish I could disappear
Bet they all agree
There's nothing worse,
Nothing worse than falling

I'm on the brink of despair
Can barely hold my ground
And I doubt they'd care
fell and hit the ground

There's too much weight
Can barely hold it up
Just one more mistake
I feel like giving up

I don't want to fall
But I can no longer stand
Tell me, what would you do
If I outstretched my hand
Would you hold me up
Would you push me down
Or do nothing at all
And watch me fall

I can see the cracks begin to form
I can feel the ground begin to give
Tell me, would you save me from this storm
Rescue me and let me live

We'll never know
Cause' I'll never ask
rather go it alone
Won't take the risk
Track Name: Broken
You tell me your secrets
So deep and so dark
you're greatest regrets
and how you fell apart

You're broken, and it's easy to see
You're chained, and you want to be free
You're broken, yea you're down on your knees
You're chained, and it's heartache for me
You're broken, and it's easy to see
You're chained, but you just can't brake free

Traded a finger down your throat
For white powder up your nose
tryin' your best to stay afloat
But you're drowning, and nobody knows

There's just this one thing
I want to do
Say it's ok
Wrap my arms around you
There's just this one thing
I want to do
Say it's ok
Don’t let your past define you
Track Name: Hearts
We're all just broken hearts
but we pretend we got it together
like we haven't fallen apart
like we still believe in forever
but we're all just broken hearts
and we should know better
'cause we're all just broken hearts
we're all just broken hearts

Well you think she's got it all together
and that's what she'd have you believe
but you don't feel how his hands haunt her
and you don't hear the lies
he whispers in her ears at night
she's broken and losing hope
she knows she'll never win this fight

Well you think he's got it figured out
and that's what he'd have you believe
but you don't feel all his pain and doubt
and you don't hear the loneliness
his anguish in the night
he's broken and losing hope
he knows he'll never win this fight
Track Name: Man Lost in the Desert
Like a man lost in the desert,
I'm wandering through
Just praying for rain
Just looking for you

Like a man lost in the desert,
there's a hunger in my eyes
Searching for what I can't find
Searching for the truth amongst their lies

Like a man lost in the desert,
I'm weak and weary.
I try to go on
but all I seem to do is fall.
I try to stand,
but the voices say I can't
on my own they would be right
but I have you Lord,
and You've already won that fight.

I'm a man lost in the desert
but Lord, You are faithful.
You provide and You love
Lord you are faithful
to this man lost in the desert
Track Name: Secret
I see you keep a secret
you must never let them know
if they learn the truth
they will never let you go

You walk amongst the lions
you act the part in daylight
yet in the darkness you cry
they would all know why

they must never know
you must never let it show
tears give you away
can't let them see you cry
it is better to obey
you don't want to die

They must never know
you must never let it show
let your lips speak the words
their ears wish to hear
save the truth for the birds
you wouldn't want to disappear

Just keep hoping for the day
you can run away
but you know they'd see it coming
somehow it's safer just to stay

I see you keep a secret
I bet they already know
but don't give them a show
they will never let you go
Track Name: Midnight Plea
My darkest hour
I flee from you
my time of need
I turn away

I know I’ve failed you
time and time again
but if not for me
then please, for them

Let not their hearts be stone
show them they are not alone
that You are the light in the darkness

Let not their hearts be stone
show them they are not on their own
that You’re the life among the dead

I know I’ve failed you
time and time again
but if not for me
then please, for them
Track Name: NyQuil Overdose
I know it isn’t easy
I know you’ve lost all hope
I know it isn’t what you wanted
I know you’ve lost your way
And though your life has got you down
Please, don’t throw it away

In your quiet desperation
The tempting cliffs will call
And without any hesitation
I will save you from the fall

And though the voices taunt you
Don’t listen to their lies
And as they try to brake you
I will save you from their cries

I can’t promise you’ll find true love
Or have that ever after
That you’ll have naught to be afraid of
but I
I promise you
You will always have me
and I will never leave
Track Name: Oceans
I'll lay here quiet
as the waters rise around me
just rest a moment
as they consume me

I'll lay here quiet
and drink the oceans in
I’m already at the bottom
cant sink further than where I’ve been

I wake to the panic
the fear of drowning
I open my eyes
to the world around me
(this could really be the end)

I cry out,
but it makes no sound
just life escaping from my lips
I reach up,
but all I find is the sea
the cool night air evades me
I kick my feet,
but my legs have grown so weary
the pale moonlight will sing me to sleep

It’s sink or swim
and I’m tired of drowning
it’s do or die
and I want to breathe again
it’s sink or swim
and I’m sick of dying
it’s do or die
I'll learn to swim once more

I fear I'll miss the oceans
in my lungs
this watery grave was beginning to feel like home