Through Waking Eyes

by Matthew Ellis

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Sophomore album, thank you for listening!

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released November 1, 2016

All songs written, recorded, & performed by Matthew Ellis & Cara McQuate
Lyrics & Vocals, Guitar, Piano, Lyre, Cello by Matthew Ellis
Percussion, Bass, Banjo, Mandolin, Flute, Guitar, Backing Vocals by Cara McQuate
Produced by Matthew Ellis & Cara McQuate
Mixed & Mastered by Jim Roll at Backseat Productions
Artwork & Design by Kelsey Shankle

© ℗ 2016 Matthew Ellis
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Track Name: Shadows
I’m living in a nightmare
Wake to a monster in my bed
His arms wrapped around me
But it’s no longer so scary
Scaled skin, bright green eyes, and black heart
Uses his razor tongue to tear you apart
It just doesn’t hurt so bad anymore

You were like a dream, a distant hope
So far, yet attainable somehow
A smile like sunshine, you smelled like peace

The shadows dance in the flickering light
Like the dark intentions behind his eyes
The shadows dance in the flickering light
And watch as he feeds on my fading light

You were a dream, just what I’d needed
That little hope, that little push
Gave me the strength to not stay

The shadows crawl, the shadows leap
Reflecting the fears deep within me
The shadows grasp, the shadows reach
As if daring me to drift to sleep

It’s time to face reality, it’s time to wake up
It’s not a nightmare, and he’s not a monster
Just another man.
A liar, manipulator
A hurting soul who feels the need to control
And cut me down
And you’re not a dream
Just another man
A good man
So thank you, but I’m waking up
I’m waking up.
Track Name: Stars
He saw the world in black and white
There was wrong and there was right
Spoon-fed half-truths and easy lies
So convicted, so sure
Turns out he was what they despised

Now everything looks grey
With shades of blue and red
His worlds turned upside down
From church pew to a strangers bed
Searching for a comfort, a refuge
From the voices in his head

Just look to the stars
You’re not a rock in the dust, but a light in the sky
So look to the stars
That’s what you are

She doesn’t know how she got here
How it all disappeared
Good deeds are forgotten, but
They’ll always remember the fall
So she packs her bags and makes the call

Now everything looks grey
With shades of red and blue
Her worlds turned upside down
Wish I could do something for you
Can’t shine if you’re staring at the ground
Look up, not around

The vast expanse, the final frontier
The freedom to imagine, an escape from fear
To live in a dream
Things are never quiet as bad as they seem
Track Name: Promises, Promises
Your promises always broke
Your forevers turned to goodbyes
If I was broken when you found me,
I’m beyond shattered tonight

You said I love you and I said it too
I could say it now, but boy you know I need to go
You said forever and I said it too
We were gonna stay together forever, but now I need to go

Baby, you know I’m right ‘cause we’re going down
And our mothers’ll be crying as they dig two holes in the ground

You say you’ll do so much better and I want nothing more than to believe you
But I’ve heard it before. Won’t let myself believe you anymore.
Track Name: True Love
They say love comes only once
They say the same for death
But I swear I’ve died on a few occasions
And I’m not so sure what we had was true, my love

I was just another piece on the board
Just another tool to use until it breaks
Another light to burn until it fades
Mine was just another soul you wanted to own

Your lies and calculating eyes
Your games and all those power plays
Three steps ahead but they never know
You win but they never know

Take my pieces, leave them lying on the floor
Too insignificant for you to pick up
Just tread upon my heart, crush my life into dust

They say love comes only once
They say the same for death
But I swear you killed me on a few occasions
And I’m not so sure what we had was true, my love
Track Name: Stay
Some nights when I’m alone
and a sad song starts to play
I have to fight back the tears,
remembering things you used to say

Words you used to scream at me
and words you whispered in my ear
weapons to keep me in your arms
and lies to strike up fear

All to make me stay with you
But I left, I got away
These fears still stay with me
A part of you I’m forced to keep
These fears still stay with me

You told me how I’d die alone
‘cause no one else could ever love me
and though I know that can’t be true
your words still haunt my mind
and though I know that can’t be true
sometimes truth is hard to find
Track Name: Riot in the Oligarchy
Give me the money, enough to make my vote count
Dollars speak louder than honesty
The truth is but a whisper amongst the wealthy’s dreams
The news is but a shadow of what it used to be,
A side of bias amid hysteric screams
So give me the money, enough to make my vote count
Truth doesn’t mean a thing

Riot is the language of the unheard
Riot speaks louder than words
You choke them hard enough hoping no one will hear their cries
You oppress those who are different
Steal their liberties from beneath their bloody, beaten bodies
Try to sweep us under the rug, but we’re not going anywhere
We’re still hear, and you’re going to hear me

Riot is the language of the unheard
Riot speaks louder than words
The tighter you clench your fist, the louder we’ll scream
We won’t be silenced, you’re gonna hear me
You were supposed to protect, to serve
We’re not the enemy, we’re not the enemy
But we won’t be silenced, you’re gonna hear me
Riot is the language of the unheard
Riot speaks louder than words

Radical change calls for radical action
In a system that’s broken, patience is a delusional thing
Only the just and righteous would give up their power,
A far cry from earthly kings
Is there a nonviolent solution, a peaceful way to end this internal war
We refuse to live this way anymore
Track Name: Peace of Mind
Insignificant and alone
She finds self-worth in the men that want her
He’ll tell you what you want to hear,
But he can’t give you what you need

You give him one night,
He gives you nothing but regret
It’s like you’re crawling in the dark
Bloody hands and knees
Dirt clings to your clothes
and your tear-stained cheeks

Just put down the knife
Pick up some peace of mind
Find the strength inside
Find your peace of mind

So ready to love others
She keeps none for herself
Her skin pales with the passing years
Her lips fade from red to blue

As you give up on you
They will too
You just wanted someone to love you
Track Name: Others' Expectations
What you lacked in wisdom
You made up for in insecurities
And you imparted them all to me

Spent your time staring into the mirror
You were never enough
At least, that’s what you’d see
And now the mirror’s my worst enemy

It’s hard to change the way we see ourselves
Caught up in others’ expectations
Caught up in others’ expectations
It’s hard to love ourselves
If we don’t know what love looks like
Don’t know what love looks like

Blind to what was really true
Blind to all but what that reflection showed you
Deaf to what was really true
Deaf to all but the memories of what he told you

Fight the voices in your mind
Learn to love yourself
Look through new eyes
See the beauty inside

Look through new eyes
See the beauty inside
Track Name: No One's Fault
I remember our last embrace
I never wanted to let you go
And I knew you’d let me hold you
As long as I needed to
But the tears were welling up inside
And I couldn’t let you see
The weakness in my eyes
So I stole one last kiss
I said my goodbye

It’s no one’s fault
But it’s still over
It’s no one’s fault
But it still hurts
It’s no one’s fault
But I can’t help but to think
I could have done something different

I hope you find a man that makes you want him
Like I wanted you
And I hope he loves you
Like you never loved me

You said we wanted different things
Felt guilty for keeping them from me
And couldn’t do this anymore
You said we wanted different things
I don’t know what you wanted
But I just wanted you
Track Name: Corporate Hymn
Listen close and I’m sure you’ll hear
Listen close and I’m sure you’ll hear
Their corporate hymn

Smile to America while you stab her in the back
Drone on about your patriotism
But refuse to pay livable wages
Then send all your jobs over seas

Fill our foods with poisons
Fill our lakes with poisons
Fill our skies with poisons

They own the house and the senate
Money is power
And they hoard it all between themselves
They tell you what to think
They tell you how to feel
They tell you what is to be successful
To be beautiful, to have worth
Money is power
And they would do anything for more
Hurt anyone for more

Leave those with less to wither away
Remake Jesus in your image
Nothing is holier than conservative politics
God bless the privileged

Corrupt the youth
Corrupt the nation
Corrupt the very soil beneath our feet
Track Name: Half Heart
You think we could heal each other
Combine our broken hearts
To make them full again
To live forever, happily

Well I’ve learned the hard way
That’s not how it works
Two half hearts don’t make a whole
you can try putting them together
but all you have are two wounded souls

and you think it’ll make things better for the both of us,
but it’ll only make things worse
you’ll burn each other out
you’ll cry, you’ll curse
that half heart you guarded turns to ashes in your hands
and you’re alone, again

years later you start to wonder if you could ever love someone like before
when you do, just walk away
just walk away
no one wants what’s left of a wrecked up heart
your ashes, they’re cast into the wind
and you’re left with nothing, nothing
where your heart used to be, just a hollow shell
and you’re alone, again

Then you’ll spend your days clouding your mind with distractions
And spend your nights wondering why no one would love you
Your demons and insecurities, they grab you by the throat
It’s not poetic, suffocating hurts
And they won’t let go, they won’t let go

So listen when I tell you, keep that half heart safe
Save it for someone who can love you right
Someone with a whole heart
and not whatever it is I have left inside this bleeding chest

you don’t understand now, but you’ll thank me

Maybe I could help you, but I’m beyond repair
And I’ve told you how the story ends

Keep what remains of your love and innocence,
Leave me to fade
I’ve told you how the story ends

You don’t understand now, but you’ll thank me
someday
Track Name: Enough
You love and you love
You give and you give
But it’s just not enough
It’s just not enough

They take and they take
You shoulder their burdens,
You endure their pain
They take and the take
Your body and your soul
They take and they take
Until you’re all used up
Then they leave
To find a well they haven’t emptied yet

Mistook the lust in his eyes for affection
His greedy hands as healing
Accepted his words for what he said they were
His deception as the honesty I wanted it to be

You love and you love
You give and you give
For them it’s never enough
But know, you are enough
You are enough
Track Name: Tip of My Tongue
With my hand in yours
You avoid my gaze
Hoping you do not see
I hope you do not see

Your name, on the edge of my lips
Love, on the tip of my tongue
Just put your lips on mine
Can’t keep this secret for long
You’re like all I ever wanted
You’re like all I’ll ever need
It’s like I’ve been waiting here forever
I’m finally waking from the dream

Like the night holds the stars
I’ll keep you in my arms
And just like the moon
You outshine them all
As the waves in the see
You pull me
As the waves in the see
You pull me
Track Name: Let Go
Breathe in, breathe out
Let it go

Take a deep breath then let it go
Just let go

You were young, and so was I
You were young, and I wasn’t without fault
You were wrong, but I stuck around

I may not forget, but I’ll forgive
I’ll finally let go

Living in the past is like choosing to live in pain
Too busy hurting to notice moments slip between your fingers
Bits of the present you will never have again
Living in the past leaves no door to a future
Barring yourself in with what happened long ago
Scarred, lonely, and no place else to go

Let it go
Just let go
Let it go